Follow your dreams!

So many people fail to dream big dreams and follow them...of course the first thing said when I suggest this notion of dreaming is..."What about doing what God wants?" ..Why do these 2 things have to be oppossing ideas? If we are following God and His word and are working hard to grow in the knowledge of God then we should trust that those dreams are a reflection of Gods Will. Isn't he the one that gives us the desires of our hearts? If He has given us a desire or strong desire for something then we should trust that and go for it! I believe this is much like Eric Liddles feelings about racing and his sister needed to learn that his dreams were part of that will. I have never seen this movie above but I love the part about following your dreams. I so want my children to DREAM BIG DREAMS and when haters discourage and everyone thinks the dreams are stupid or far fetched seek the LORD and go for it!!!

surgery tomorrow

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. (Deuteronomy 31:8)

I am posting this for my non-facebook friends in Florida and elsewhere...

I have had a lot of issues lately with my lower teeth...mulitple abcesses and 2 root canals and still there is something not right that I pointed out to the dr last week.After she did some indepth exrays it was discovered that I have a very large tumor growing in my jaw bone under numerous teeth. she said she really didnt like how this looked and sent the exrays to an oral surgeon and they scheduled me right then for removal of the tumor tomorrow at 12:45. They will drill through my jaw bone in several places and have to dig out the tumor which is actually growing inside the bone...I will be awake with gas and valium...I will have stitches in the front of my jaw as well as the backside of the jaw.
I have spent much time reading scripture and praying and I do not believe at this time that I am anxious as to the outcome of the biopsy but I AM DREADING the pain that will follow this surgery. I am so thankful for this scripture above and I am sure I will be reciting it when they turn on the bone drill YIKES! I am so thankful for the peace that can only come from God...what a wonderful friend he is indeed...I am so thankful for the countless songs that I have been taught at Clifton they are ringing in my ears constantly...As we also mourn the death of our beloved worship pastor (more on that coming) his voice and the things Chip Stam taught me thru his life and death are so close to my heart this week and too numerous to list. I will include some of the songs that he taught me that I cant stop singing this week and when I am recovering I will compile some thoughts from me but from so many others as to how this man changed their life...Thank you for your prayers!

hmmmmm

How much longer must we wait...give me strength...my human strength is weak and getting weaker...

47 years old today...that is getting old

Pretty quiet uneventful birthday...just another year...made homemade pizza.Robert and I made some peanut brittle tonight.The kids were busy with their many activities so pretty quiet. love this website and this pizza is fabulous!



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Getting ready to start p90x Monday...borrowed it from a neighbor so Robert and I are ready...the kids are doing it too.Should be a Very BIG CHALLENGE! Looking forward to it! Stay warm everyone...glad for the warmth of a fire and plenty of food.It's the little things that bring the greatest joys sometimes.

This is so exciting to see our good friends brother Abner and his beautiful wife Amanda making it big! This is their first video Enjoy!


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Boy was I wrong about a small Christmas... it was a HUGE Christmas!!!

I could not have been more wrong about my predicting a small Christmas this year. Christmas Eve as we just finished our dinner and were relaxing in the living room and starting to watch a Tim Hawkins video with my parents. Josh said someone is banging on the door...well I had not heard anything since we had the T.V. as loud as it would go so my dad could hear the video...I just ignored Josh and then he said more insistently " Mom some one is BANGING on the door" so I got up to check and sure enough someone was at the door!!!IT WAS CALEB! I can not tell you how surprised and overwhelmed I was!That memory will be burned into my mind for the rest of my life!!! The kids were so excited that he came. Joshua had a dream back before Thanksgiving about this same event happening on Thanksgiving day...I had mentioned a few times since then that maybe his dream will happen at Christmas but I really didnt think it would be possible. I was in my heart hopeful until Friday and then when it just seemed that all hope of it happening was gone I told Robert well I guess it is definitely not going to happen so we ate Christmas Eve dinner I had a real sense of sadness that I was trying to hide from everyone as we all sat there at dinner.I thought that Tim Hawkins would change my mood so we sat down to watch and then REAL joy as God granted us such a wonderful Christmas present overwhelmed my heart. To top it off he brought along his girlfriend Rachel and it was SO WONDERFUL to meet her and get to know her. She was easy to talk to and very comfortable to have in our home and the kids all think she is GREAT! This was just the first surprise of the weekend. About an hour after he arrived we had to go deliver a few goody bags to some friends in Taylorsville so we asked them to come but they declined. I felt horrible just leaving them sitting there on the couch when they had just arrived. Well we were only gone about 30 minutes and when we returned we were greeted with another HUGE surprise. Caleb bought the family a 55 inch flat screen T.V. and it was all set up in the living room. OH my goodness! Now we all won't have to sit a foot from the T.V. to try and see our #49.We can see nose hairs now if we want. That was an awesome gift that will make our situation of not being able to go to any of his games a lot easier to accept. Well then we had another treat Sunday night when he took Robert and I out to dinner at a fancy restaurant! I had LOBSTER!!! The appetizers were incredible and the food was so delicious as well as dessert. What an incredible treat that was! As most of you know our finances have been so difficult for the last few years due to Seminary and low paying jobs. We have not been able to go out to a real restaurant except for fast food unless we happened to have a gift card. This was so incredible to go out somewhere so exceptionally nice and delicious. We enjoyed many conversations and playing games together. The only sad part was saying goodbye. I cry easier and easier the older I get.I guess that is due to the realization that our lives slip by quickly and time between visits can feel so long when we dont see the ones we love.The knowing that I probably wont see him again for a year was on my mind when he left that and the fact that my heart was bursting with love and joy for the whole experience of him coming home.I wish at those moments I would be able to express myself in better ways than tears but I attribute that to a mothers love that just spills out. I hope through the years I can verbalize to Caleb just how much this weekend meant to all of us if not maybe he will know this kind of joy when his son someday surprises his family in such a way. I hope you all had wonderful Christmas stories as well. God has been so good to us this Christmas!

Funny thing is Grace had said not just a few times this year that she wished that this would happen. This is similar but our surprise was much more dramatic :)